Dreamin' big...

...is a good thing! It feels good. That may be the biggest problem about dreaming big: it feels too good to be real.
Somewhere in the past I lost my ability to dream big, 'cause too many people told me all the things I can't do. The pessimistic world totally got me. The result was simple: I was depressed... I used to be a happy, outgoing person before. What happened to this person?
I thought of the time I tried to follow my dreams, how good it felt and how adventurous it was, how much I liked it and what it made of me. It never brought me financial security and as this is very important to most of us, everyone told me that those times are nothing worth. Would you agree?
I don't.

Trying to swim with the flow, to just struggle for financial freedom didn't satisfy me. I felt as if I'd lost something. Something important. And then I realized that this important thing was me. I lost myself and I ran away from the people, from this life that stole it from me, 'cause they made me a totally different person. They made me to someone I didn't wanna be. Someone without ideals, without dreams, someone who didn't have a permission to have dreams. Knowing that you are not allowed to dream - I believe - will kill you sooner or later.

By the time I decided to go to Croatia - without a plan, without money, without a valid work contract, only with the will to be a sailing instructor there - this changed. I dream again. Even if I got fired (yes, I got fired! And I'm more then happy about that!) Right now I'm on my way back to Germany. Happy that I don't need to work for this ... nice Austrian guy any more, but sad that I had to leave Rovinj. This city is sooooo damn beautiful! One should definitely visit it!
For me I know that I'll come back there some day and maybe next time I have a plan, money and a new dream (circumnavigating the world is still on top of the list^^)! With this in mind I'm not too sad any more. And hey, Hanseatische Yachtschule will have me back again for now ;)