When Winter comes...

Summer definitely has come to an end. No big deal in the real world, but as you know, I'm not really living in the real world. The sailing academy is kind of like an island under a cheese cover. When you're inside, you never care about things on the outside. It's a completely different life. Most of us at HYS only stay for a few weeks during the season and for them their stay here is like a vacation. They go back into their real life and live on as if nothing happened. They just continue doing what they did before they came here. Go back to their ordinary jobs, studies, school.

For me it's different. I don't have a home outside the sailing academy, so the end of the sailing season is pretty important to me 'cause I won't have a job or a home afterwards.
I thought I could find work somewhere in a winter sports area but that turned out to be more difficult than I thought it would be. In two weeks I'll have to leave and I still don't know where to go. Maybe a life in my car is not made for the long term. I could go back to university and study something...I think I'd like that! But for studying you also need money which means you need a job and BOOM! - there's the old problem. The idea is good, but to make it work it takes more than enthusiasm.

This morning I searched for jobs on the internet. As a waitress or something. Unfortunately in Germany you need a paper for everything! Even for a job as a waitress. Seems to be not enough that I finished school, speak two languages, studied engineering and trained my social skills while working with our sailing course participants. I also need a paper that says I'd be able to take a tablet with beer from here to there.
Since I somewhat fell in love, it's more difficult, 'cause I don't know if I wanna live this life of constant inconstancy any more. But what I also don't know is, if this maybe-relationship lasts. If I knew that, I would put more effort in trying to get a job in the city he lives in.

Anyway, today is sunny but cold and it's getting colder every day. Two weeks ago it was sunny and warm and I got a bit of my beautiful tan back. Tomorrow we'll make a day trip to Denmark and I hope that it'll cheer me up a bit.
Till then....have a beautiful day, world!